Thank you, November, for kicking me straight up the wa-zoo. This month has been one of the worst... not in my life, but definitely in the past few years. I haven't had much to say because I've been missing a lot of class, but here's the low down.

1) Five people have died in relation to my family, two that directly affected me. As I posted before, my great uncle Fred died on the first and he was a person who was very dear to my heart. He was definitely one of the most influential people in my life. Then, last week, my mother's husband's cousin-in-law died of the superbug which basically shut down her organs and gave her double pneumonia of the lungs. She was 42-years-old and she left behind two children. Their father died in November a few years ago, so now they live with my mother's husband's uncle and aunt, who have permanent custody of them. Her wake was on Tuesday and the funeral was on Wednesday and I had to babysit her kids. Richard is 8 or 9, I believe, and he's being so strong right now. If I had both of my parents and I lost them within a few years span in the same month, I would be beside myself. But he knows that he has to stay strong for his brother, Jacob, who is almost 7. Jacob really doesn't understand what's going on, but when everyone was leaving for the wake on Tuesday night, Richard looked like he was going to burst into tears. I hope that this only makes him stronger and doesn't weaken him, but he's a good kid. He knows better than to let this defeat him.

2) I have been sick all month. The second week of November I had a vicious stomach bug and now I've been feeling really nauseous and weak. My throat is starting to hurt and I'm just tired all the time. Not fun at all.

3) My car is all broken. We used it to drive to Canton so I could babysit the kids and my mother and Stanley FINALLY NOTICED that there was something wrong, after numerous complaints by me to them about the steering, the wheels, the engine, and the brakes. So last week, the tire was stripped and my mother's husband got it changed. Then, as we were driving home from after the funeral, it sounded like the tire opposite the one that had just been changed was stripped. I said something but nobody listened. So, I decided to go get some milk and ponytail holders. I get in the car, drive away, and BOOM - the tire that I was questioning pops. I was in the middle of a busy street and I had to hubcap it all the way back home. By the time I got home, the tire was so shredded, I'm surprised I even made it back. Now there's a donut on it and hopefully my mother's husband will take it into wherever he takes his trucks and get it fixed.

4) My mother recently had a mammogram done and apparently they found an abnormality. This is really scary to me because nobody in my family has ever had the slightest bit of breast cancer. If she has it, I don't know what I'm going to do. This month just keeps getting better and better...

On a lighter note, I saw Dane Cook on Saturday which definitely cheered me up. He is such an amazing person, it was a surreal moment to finally see him live in person and not on DVD.

I'm not feeling well at all so I'm going to go to work study and then head home. Hopefully Thanksgiving break will do me some good...